Current mood: 80% confused, 20% sad
Time to be serious and carefully plan what to do.
Though I had actually thought about it before..
But there is always no outcome.
Im scare to think what will happen in the future.
But I will have to face it one day no matter what.
Since this is what I had chosen, I am responsible for it.
What will happen when *** knows about it...
Will she accept or object?
What about ***?
He is harder to handle..
Problems, problems, problems..
It will still be better if I were to tell her first.
But what will her reaction be?
But she maybe shock when she knows.
Though she said something before that makes me feel relief.
What if *** and *** object?
What should I do?
Just follow what they want me to do?
Im sure I will be very sad and cry.
And it will take countless of days or even months to heal the pain..
What if I insist?
What will their reaction be?
What will they do?
If they were to just accept it..
Things will be better.
Somethings are really hard to say it out..
The moment I wanted you,
7:03 PM